trying to find normal again

My last post was filled with raw emotion.  I had no idea what was going to happen in life.  I still don't.  Who really does?

So here is where we are at, at this very moment in time:

Julian now has a job at NASA.  He starts today.  It is a good, respectable job.  It pays okay.  It will provide insurance, which we haven't had in over six months.  It has a flexible working schedule.  That is a huge kicker for us.  That means that Julian can work four 10 hour shifts instead of five 8 hour shifts.  He will have a day to stay home with the boys while I go to work.  It means he will only have to commute (and boy is it a commute..hour and half drive EACH way) four days a week instead of five.  We had to break down and get a toll pass.  So four days works out well for that as well; only four days having to pay to drive to work and back.

Those are good things to focus on: a good paying job, insurance, possible stability.